Rains of Summer


Aguas de Abril – Waters of April, if i’m not mistaken.


Things are starting to ease now, I’m now starting to lose motivation. Especially work and other stuffs. I feel like I’m dragging myself to work. I’m slowly taking the pace of just totally lying down in eternity… haha, o.a . Of course not, I can’t resign nor stop doing the things I love. I have bills to pay, I have my mom to take care of, I have friends to tease to, lots of indifferent places to go to, Tons of people to shoot to, Say sorry to the people I hurt, listen to other’s apology, tech gadgets to splurge on, money to burn, good food to eat and someone to make happy and realize that life can be so fulfilling.

I think my body is now getting weaker.. I’m having a fever now, and it’s damn consistent. Low grade, for quantification.



My skin problem is recurring for the nth time. I also have xxxxxxxxd . secret…
Maybe my cd4 is getting lower than the first time I took the test, 282.
I wanna take ARV’s but every time that prescription is within my reach, these comes up ..

tsk. The day ended as I walk along Ayala Av., and the so called Rain of Summer touched my face. I wanna get wet and feel like a child again, dancing in the rain… but i might get sick.

“sayang”

I can’t wait for payday….

Yin and Yang



Monday, the most hated day of the week. Rush hour, the hustle and bustle, overloaded paper works.. Monday sickness as what you call it.


On the contrary, this Monday was so good.. less stress, more happiness and great laughs.

Less work the day, mean less stress.. good!
Chit chat, pig and drink out on a typical Monday! awesome…
Laughs here, laughs over there.. office day ended by an early out! wohoo!


Great jump off for the week!
less negativities, insecurities, insensible talks, insensitive manners..
all i can say is… “No Wonder…”

I was exchanging sms with a good friend of mine, and we were making chismis about the latest with the positive guys. this made me realize that hey, even in this world those hilarious guys still exist. Talking about those pretentious ones, who’ll fool you with their sensible acts then eventually they’re not, those superficial guys just like you see in g4m or planet romeo.. So contrary to what i’ve heard that, “bumabait ang mga tao pag naging HIV positive
well, in some cases… yes. there are a lot of nice guys out there, but not all.

Still a lot of cocky ones. Attitude problem ones. again, No Wonder….

if there’s the yin, there’s gonna be the yang…. even with the HIV wolrd. so another realization came up.

Sensible Sunday


Sunday, and it’s a good one for me!


met a new friend, loved the long sensible talks.

Less dense day for Mall of Asia I should say… Maybe tired from the hustles of yesterday’s Metro Festival.

Went out for a photoshoot. I like this.. I’m back on my lens.

Stroll, shoot and dine.. wow, 2.5 cups of rice! my appetite is beating me..

(my shot —> )

leave all stress and insensitivities, time to move forward.

Thanks to this sensible guy i’ve met.

Sunday’s like Sundae.. a comfort zone.


Takes One to Tango


Starstrukk – 3OH!3 ft Katy Perry

“It doesn’t really matter Who you say you are, Singin’ out the window of your car, Find another girl across the Bar, ‘Cause L-O-V-E is not what this was”

Alone isn’t always lonely … for sometime.

Yesterday was all a crap, pressured and crammed work just to squeeze myself in an occasion and friends making tampo since I’ll leave early for a movie date turned disaster and insensitive cracks which triggered my Lacrimal glands and making my eyes puffed. wow

I decided to pay Ortigas a visit since San Miguel by the Bay is throttled with Aliwan Festival,
I might be another needle in a haystack.



To ease my unlawful tension, I played Tekken and challenged some guys, with all fairness I got 5 consecutive wins.

Hungry and sweaty coz of the play, I went to a nearby burger chain, 3rd to my favorite burger patty goodness after Brother’s Burger and Burger King. Off to Cyberzone to buy my bass pounding thingy., went to a pharmacy and bought some stuffs and medicines.

Last week for Date Night and I wanna try it… hmm, not really funny. Get Smart was way better.

I declined to join my friend who wanted to go and enjoy the night in Malate. To begin with, I’m not really a party guy nor a bar grasshopper, I can enjoy and ride with the guys, I just don’t know the run-abouts of the game.

Unknown events are in stored for me for Sunday and I hope this won’t be like last week’s.

Sigh, it’s been a while.. I’m dating countless guys the past couple of years.
None of them turned out right, either they went to see a hotter guy, they’re just playing off,
they’re too desperate to have one and rushing things out, senseless ones and the insensitive ones
or maybe it’s me who’s being too choosy.

I just know what I want, if you insist “no” then fine.. it’s a no. if you want it, then lets talk about it. Life’s easy…

hope J and I will meet tomorrow..

My Pillow is too wet




I just can’t stop my eyes from tearing right now…


I’m crying a river. I don’t know why, maybe all the burdens, frustrations and disappointment since I was a child erupted all of a sudden.

From a famous Science law, For every action, there will be an equal or opposite reaction.
Like a gun, a finger must trigger for it to fire.


The week was pretty aloof with me, Weekend is not really getting me off.
Even my iPod can’t ease what i am feeling.. this is getting worse.



I’m a kind of guy who doesn’t really say “i’m sorry” and “please” and maybe that’s what makes
my strong personality. So when somebody heard it from me, rest assured I mean it.. but when it comes to a point that these words are mistreated, Simply… no more “sorries” and “pleases”.
been crying for 2hours… and it’s heavy, im just keeping it silent so no one can hear my rumble.
even Lady GaGa’s Bad Romance can’t stop me….



From this depression am having, i thought of confessing my status with one of my ex’s whom i saw online in ym, i told him everything.. everything went like a beach of tears. after a bit of talk,

“I’ll commit myself in helping you…”

a pound of hard relief rushed through my virus filled veins, which I’ve been longing for..

tomorrow, a good crepe and movie is up.
good luck with puffy eyes.
Sorry, I’m just too Vulnerable.

Franticism


Thursday…


It seemed that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed…

1. I had a good dream, but I wasn’t able to remember every detail of it!

2. INH tabs smells awful, well for me… though it’s smaller than a normal tab.
-i’m on INH prophylaxis by the way, Mantoux test came out positive. PPD test if you’re thinking.

3. My printer driver was not downloaded and installed on my desktop, what i have is the Windows Vista version and not Windows XP.



4. I left the house with a one-bar battery on my phone.

5. a simple snack drained me P100, yes, P100. An impractical kind of snack when i have something inside my bag.

6. crappy office systems… they help lessen my cd4 cells, EVERYDAY!

7. a friend who’s not talking to you all of a sudden. fine!

8. the most deadly sin inside the office, i was seized using mobile.

9. traffic jam… on a midnight!!!! Arrival on home was late by 25 minutes.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH!! turn-over will be done tomorrow, i need to look good..
I have a gathering to attend to, a movie date as well.

Friendly Tuesday




A pretty nice Tuesday for me…


I got a new friend, Lucky13, and where gonna meet somewhere in Alabang. A mall to be exact and had lunch. His stuffed pizza, mine’s ultimate spicy one… well it’s not that spicy for me though.

He’s nice… 🙂

It was also a chance for me to meet friend, she’s item 4d. the gayish girl of my “Functional Groups” post. I was excited to see her as the lounge would become more noisy and gayfullness -hahah

gayfullness – state of being more than gay. 😀

wasn’t able to visit and meet E since they restrict visitors..

Had a check-up, and almost a cliff-hanging event of them giving me arv’s!
having a tonsillitis pays off… they need to eradicate this thingy before giving the candies…

The humid afternoon ended and Lucky13, gayish girl and i went to a nearby mall for a small dinner and exchange her usb. Omygawd! i really hate Wellcom’s customer service… grrraad! nakaka stress!!!

after dinner, we parted ways.. of course with smiles on our faces.. with new found friends 🙂

till next time..

Slow Sunday


Yesterday, i told myself that Sunday will be my movie and stress-buster day.

It didn’t happen.

I was home the whole day long and got nothing to do but to stare and work my eyes
in front of my laptop.

My boring day started after lunch, It was a nice start since the smell of cooked crabs
rose me from bed and seducing me to tear up their shells.

I went online to check the sites i normally go to. There’s Facebook, a gay social network site,
a photo sharing website, my blog and other stuffs…


I planned myself to hit the road by 4pm so i can catch the golden hour of sunset.
but it’s too early so i decided to chat around mIRC, the old school chat hub.
met some guys who wanna go and make out, i was tempted but i opted not to go.. well, i have
my plan for the day so i wouldn’t go to begin with.

I wasn’t able to monitor my time and it’s already 530pm, darn! tinamad na tuloy ako! so
I continued on my chore and waited for dinner to be served, i checked my blog every now and then, taking chance that someone might respond to any that i have posted.. luckily there was one! it’s Lucky13, an email of him blasted on my outlook revealing his number. Alas!
Someone sensible to talk to!

Dinner was served, Lucky13 and I were still exchanging sms..
I promised myself that today should be a photo-ops day, i went outside the village and took some shots.

it’s 1132pm on my laptop… again, Lucky13 and i are still exchanging sms.
a new found buddy…

It isn’t a bad day after all…

Overloaded Planner

Cu

rrent iPod song:

Naturally – Selena Gomez


A busy and uncertain week it was…Paper works here, Errands over there and blood tests everywhere!


So many things to do, my planner was overloaded for the week.
From office stuffs to personal issues, i was a bit stressed out!- this can’t be! i have my little cd4’s to take care with!


Came Friday, everything came as what was planned.
now it’s a weekend, there’s a time for me to indulge to happiness!

  • Worked my biceps out… It’s not bad to be hot especially nowadays. 🙂

  • Went to Megamall for a haircut and have my hair colored, i found my new hair cutting hub here a couple of months ago. The thing with this salon… staffs are hot! not the stylist but their assistants, i dont know if they require nicely toned biceps, unique height and that husky look for employement. damn, they shouldn’t be here! well, still it’s a nice eye popping item for me though. 😀

  • Strolled around for any potential buys, my handy planner was with me and thought of buying something for my tech babies, a good dog tag accessory and a new shirt.

My feet was aching tired, movie trip is postponed and will be moved for tomorrow.


Maybe it’s time to revive my photography experiences and for this, a sunset photo shoot would suffice. . Moving forward after this post, i want to use my own photos in my humble blog.

Hey, did i mention that i’m doing this alone? 🙂

Araw ng ODDtingan

April 09, 2010 – Araw ng Kagitingan.

A regular non-working holiday, but for me… it’s twice the pay! 😀
Knowing it’s a holiday, i still decided to visit RITM.
Upon my arrival, OPD door was lokced..
“sigh, pati pala hospital my holiday din…”
I went to ask Kuya Guard and he told me, Ms. Ana just went to somewhere..
I said to myself, “finally, a chance of meeting Ms. Ana”
I saw her and excitedly entered the door and had chikas with the ever famous..
she’s really nice! so nice..
Coming 11am, I decided to leave the institution and tried my luck in Makati Med for a vertigo check up. Just like when Ayala Ave. on a non-working holiday, Makati Med was like a Resident Evil hospital.. they’re on holiday as well..
ok fine, it’s too early for my work shift, i have roughly 3hours to waste.
My viruses were hungry so i went to a nearby McDonalds for small snack, i ordered my favorite Fish burger and salt infused fries and dined outside for a fresh air, non-working holiday environment of Makati.
Few minutes later, just like what i expected, i saw someone i knew…
and he’s a + , he’s quite a popular guy coz he’s mentioned in some blogs, i dont know if didnt notice my presence or if he’s suplado na. but i think he saw me. this made another conclusion for me as even in the PLHIV society, there’s still this uncertainty where superficiality reigns. well, it’s just a personal observation, too many fake personalities i should say. but then again, i dont know…
more than 2 hours remaining, ” where would i go?”
i took a cab and drove the way to Glorietta, time for another Timezone play and window shop.
As i was strolling and went up to the movies area, there’s a booth kind of something and i saw one of my old time crushes.. oh, he’s still cute, nice skin, and hair… i remembered the moment when we were sleeping side by side… kilig for another time! 😀 … that was just sleeping, ok? no other naughty thoughts!
Time to leave the place and head back to office..
F@cK#iT! there’s my bitch EX! together with his bitch bff… argh!
Good thing i was on my best that day, hahah.
Got nothing to do in the office, work load was at low and it’s time to make fun with other officemates. Shared my experiences for the day and it was really fun, im enjoying this life!
Really odd day for me this Araw ng ODDtingan.