Acting Up

All the Lovers – Kylie Minogue

All stimulants and depressants are onto me, what’s happening?

Well aside from the burdens mentioned from the previous post, here comes another one.
It’s not really a big issue but it really affects my emotional capabilities,

My partner (slash) / date (another slash) / bf to be? is acting up.
I can say immaturity is prevailing, (graduate na ko sa mga ganitong tao, so no big deal) AGAIN.

1. he’s too paranoid, every friend, officemate, best friend and person that I text/call/speak to eh may issue. He’s too paranoid to think that i’m messing up with him. He even sneaked into my phone and checked all the messages with out me knowing it. I can’t blame him nor his past for acting such.. but common man! live in the future and don’t dwell yourself from the past. grow up pls.

2. trust issue. cutting it short, HE’S NOT TRUSTING ME.
i think i dont have to explain this.. coming from the horse’s mouth.

3. proximity and stability issues. (can really be compromised, but for me plays a crucial role in a relationship) he’s from the south, San Pablo, Laguna to be exact. As of now he doesn’t have a job since he got sick and still catching up from the loss. He’s doing ok now, more than kicking.. he can now fuck ass.

Ok, you might think that I’m too materialistic regarding this but hey, reality bites.
I don’t even see the urge and initiation of redeeming himself.. he’s like tamad pa.
Maybe it’s a sick hang over? Hey, time is running..

I can’t elaborate the things happened to us, but what i feel now is certainly different from the time i met him last Self-Empowerment seminar. Things really do change.

I think we should get to know deeper and build the “TRUST” thingy..

I’m not happy.

Ta!

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