As soon as I on my way home from RITM-ARG, I need to eradicate this hospital mask. During my transit, I am contemplating what happened during the course of time where my CD4 was at its peak. I have to admit it, there was complacency on my end. After learning that I’m on the upward trend, an onset of being unconcerned compared to what was like before.
I have created a simple graph of my CD4 flow since this HIV thing started to show my trend. This is not a sales report ok?
The 2013 CD4 result came erroneous, it should have been around 650++ and not 740 as previously posted. As the plot say, it is on a fluctuating state. Which is understandable, I believe most of us do have this setting. There are 3 sides of the coin, (literally there 3 sides of the coin) either
That 2012 result you see above was in error and it should have been a plateau or
That 2014 result was also in error or
I was really complacent and took lesser care of myself.
Regardless, I got no time for any blame, regret or what not. What is important is how to make this rise again. From the ashes – as much as possible, not fall below the 500 threshold. I’m going to make a list of what I was previously doing that were halted. Maybe this may come in handy for you too. #youarewelcome
- Anti-retroviral drug adherence
Way back, I was too excited to take my medicines. I even remember them even before the alarm strike. But recently, I do the Mañana Habit. Not really on a procrastinating end, but when the alarm strikes, I take it 5 minutes later. Sometimes up to a point where I forget. I must regain the enthusiasm of taking ARV’s, being on time and not skipping any time of the day. Faithfulness must be restored. The link below may help you further improve your adherence, it may look too text-heavy but there’s a tabled summary for you to check. Go here.
- Sleep deprivation
My circadian cycle has been heavily disrupted since I started working graveyard. Sleeping during night is still more desirable than a 10-hour interrupted sleep at day. Wonder why I’m working at graveyard? I can’t really do anything about it, the downside of working for an IT company. Well at least here in the Pacific. The only solution I can foresee? Look for normal daytime job which I am now doing.
Years ago, I tend to go out on a weekly basis to play volleyball with other PLHIV’s. I remember this, that’s 3 years ago. Gawd, I haven’t been to strenuous activities aside from the seasonal trek and travels. This year, will definitely enroll myself to a gym. Two birds with one stone.
- Supplement intake
I did took multivitamins, those 1,000-in-1 type. It seemed helped but I suddenly stopped. This could have contributed to this mess. I also stopped taking green-tea related stuff, like tea and frap. This week, I will be buying new sets of multivitamins, including the generic ones plus Selenium alone and green tea extracts, tea bags and other similar produce. You might want to try it yourself.
- Emotion-related shit
Very subjective. They say, just be happy. Well fuck, I’m gonna strut my stuff. Will devote more time writing new posts, blog more and share (not all or with small detail) my running 4 years of being PLHIV.
Firstly, I’d like to greet everyone a happy New Year.
As of this writing, I’m here at RITM-ARG and will be having a CD4 test and medication refill. I just came from office and it is now 8:15am. Now seated at the waiting area being #19 from the line. The tv is set at HBO playing Boardwalk Empire (I wish this was Teen Wolf) and lucky I am seated near the entrance door so I have a first hand glimpse of who is entering. So far, it is not yet crowded. I dunno why.
Every guy is wearing his hospital mask, nothing fancy. No bling blings, nothing bedazzled. I hate wearing this mask, makes me uncomfortable from the warm breath I give. I also smell the after taste of that macchiato — gross. What makes it more gross, this mask I am wearing is 7 months old.
***Three new guys entered the room, one looks like a gigolo. No one interests my attention as of the moment.
Clever guys use the mask as camouflage, match it with shades and they can hide their identity.
I now find it cumbersome everytime I go here. Am no longer feeling the homy environment, everything is too formal. I just miss the old ARG days, when Ate Ana was heading every patient. I always mention this on my previous posts. Lucky those who had her.
***people are now starting to build up. My number hasn’t been called yet and it is already 8:35am, leas than an hour for the cd4 test cut off.
Finally, my turn. The PHILHEALTH officer reminded me that there’s a new CF1 form effective 2014, so better check yours. Am now at the Clinical Laboratory, waiting for my turn for blood extraction. Surprisingly, only few patient at schedule.
***there are 2 bystanders by the bench staring ridiculously at me and my seatmate. What do they want? Am good at eye fuxcking, maybe they’d want that too.
***at last! Some mentos!
Done with extraction and there’s nowhere to go. Confused coz nurse said to wait at ARG, kinda new.
I have read a bulletin where they filed a legal case against a former staff, hmmm.. how sad, she was friend of mine. I’ve heard too many issues with ARG recently.
***results will be released after lunch, still 10am. #longwait – yes that’s hashtagged.
Timecheck – 11:40am. Still waiting here at ARG. Flocks of guys poured in, seems they know each other. I don’t mingle. I don’t feel like doing it, I want my own space. They sound nosy. I may no longer go to work later to cope with sleep.
***saw a familiar face. A Facebook friend. You can’t hide your face with that mask, I know your eyes and noseline. Bitch
After hours of waiting, the results were in. My new CD4 count is 513, I now decided to have a consultation on what to do. I hope there’s no inclination to change medications yet.
Timecheck – 2:07pm, I thought I can go home. Not yet. Falling in line for consultation. The adjacent corridors are flooded with kids, maybe from dog bite section and due to measles outbreak. There are a few cuties, one wearing red long sleeve, one wearing a blue quarter sleeve.
Timecheck – 2:29pm, consultation is over. Doctor said to wait for July’s cd4 test. See if it will go on a downward trend or fluctuate like my previous results. I asked what will replace what, he said Combivir + Tenofovir. Hemoglobin is normal though.
Once I got home, will be assesing why this downtrend happened. Will keep you posted.