What Life Is

If you’re a TV series fan, you’d probably stumbled upon “Sense8”. A very human series which portrays every life, almost, on this planet. One way or the other, someone is linked and connected to our mind and soul. I guess that is the case. If you haven’t seen or watched it, go ahead and do so.

Dialogues are so deep, you can find oil and Adele rolling into it. Character Sun Bak is my favorite. A kick ass kimchi girl, I really love Koreans.


This is what Life is; fear, rage, desire… love. To stop feeling emotions. To stop wanting to feel them is to feel death.

Perhaps an important line for everyone of us. Us. who feel helpless, hopeless and rather finish it off ahead and quickly. I’m hanging by a thread and maybe so do you. It is like looking for a needle in a haystack. Trying to bring ourselves back to what was like. If you’re a little too weary of what’s gonna happen next, just think of someone from the other side of the globe who’s situation is as equal or worse than you do. It’s not looking for superiority or inferiority but rather what would happen next if we are still alive.

Slowly, I’d start taking chances, do things I haven’t done, fill up my bucketlist and just try to feel anything. Depression just makes up a part of life. There’s gonna be more than that. And that’s what we’re looking for.

Search and watch Sense8, listen and understand its words. It may help. And oh, here’s one good part:


I wish it got your attention.

Mr Chu


I call him Mr Chu. He’s my gym crush. As you may know, I hit the gym couple of months ago in an effort to regain my lost muscles from wasting and prevent it from coming back. So far,so good. There has been improvements and my my extemities are getting the shape and cuts the way I want them to be.

Of course, as you are on a new place and environment, there will be new sets of people to meet and see. Eye candy that is. He’s one of the few that really caught my attention.

He’s around my height, 5’10” maybe. Very clear complexion. He’s in very good shape, toned and athletic. Around mid 30’s. And he got chinky eyes. Like a Chinese or Korean. Thus, Mr Chu.

He works out every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. I work out Tuesdays, Thursdays and Sundays. I only get to see him of my personal trainer reschedule me to his. Yes, I decided to ask for a personal trainer to get faster results and it is expensive. I can buy a playstation 4 with this PT’s fee.

I’m desperate to know his name. Checking the reception log on every name that might be his and even searching every email from the gym’s spam distro list. But to no avail.

I don’t really intend of approaching him coz or what not. There’s no sense of striking a conversation. My inferiority is at my peak. I’m insecure of myself. Granting he’s gay, I know I’m not his type. I’ll just let it pass.