What will you do if someone seems to giving his best foot forward in an exaggerated way?
I’m a detailed type of person so when someone said this and that even when said online, I can remember every detail of it.
Met this guy over online and we were chatting over phone endlessly. Talked about the past and the usual get to know. We decided to meet over the weekend to get along.
Before parting ways, we had some talk over coffee knowing each other more.
As the talk goes a long way, I can now feel some inconsistencies and this instinct that what ever comes out of his mouth is no longer genuine. It was like sensational.
One instance was when he was talking about his ex, they were like chasing each other at different parts of the globe. Like what JLO said on her song – Brazil, Morocco, London to Ibiza, straight to LA, New York, Vegas to Africa.
Hmmm, I don’t know if I were to believe but what matters most is how surreal you are saying. Of course, let’s give the benefit of the doubt…
After we met and parted ways, we no longer have communication. Maybe he’s superficial too.. I really don’t know.
I went on an eyeball-date from a guy I met in Planet Romeo, we were exchanging sms for the past 1 week, almost every hour and every minute… how enthusiastic, right?
He then decided to meet on our common free time, Weekend. The time and day came, we were about to meet around dinner time. Prior to that, he asked if we can watch a movie.. why not! We then watched a movie and then kicked our asses to a resto for a dinner.
Lucky13 even saw me and urgently called to let me know that i’m such a snob passing him by.
He made me laugh when he said to continue my dinner date with this fugly guy. Well, I admit it.. I think I was a victim of photo manipulation and deceived with so perfect poses. Not really a big thing, I’m already here and I got nothing to lose, so just stay and be nice … Still.
Minutes after, he asked..
“Is it ok that a friend of mine will join us?”
..I was in the state of shock, I asked myself.. why? Ok, then be it.. Let your friend join us.
Let us call this friend of his as GUY X.
GUY X arrived.. he damn cute. cute based on my subjective mind. Chinito, average height, I think he’s into gym since he has nice biceps and pecs and wears glasses. Jaw dropping indeed.
Using my peripheral vision, I try to stare at him and he’s becoming familiar.. I know this guy. I saw him somewhere. I just don’t know where.. Listening to stories and get-to-know questions revealed the answer, he’s a former colleague. Shocks, Just like what I thought the moment I first saw him, He’s gay. Ok, glaciers of ice were broken.. Natural flow of conversation came up. We were enjoying the dinner and it seems that there’s no more awkwardness..
It was a turn off for my date though. Why the hell he did that? Prior to that, he was so busy texting.. maybe I am not his type. Well, to begin with I don’t like him too. QUITS.
Done with dinner and off to the nearest coffee shop. Settled down and ordered some hot drink to let our tummy calm down, Minutes later… He called in another friend, GUY Y. He was a bit tall, cute and of light aura. He’s nice.
We were on the table making stories and getting to know each other when another friend came by.. GUY Z! fuck this crap… this is getting really awkward. To be brutally honest, I’m one of the most challenged person when it comes to this certain situation. I am not really a socially inclined person. I just sit down, keep quiet and observe.. GUY Z is quite overwhelming which made the awkwardness really severe. what I can say is that they were nice, they did not let me be out of place.. but still, I was really caught off guarded. Well another lesson learned. Not really though, it isn’t my first time.. Hindi na ko natuto.
We parted ways and for sure, they’re talking about me. Who cares.
It’s weekend and I promised to treat myself after some stressful events, works and compromises. I went to see one of my favorite movies, Resident Evil: Afterlife. I waited for 2 years just to see this film, I remember way back 2002 roughly 8 years ago, when I was still non-reactive, I used to be a gamer, yes, a gamer, not fooling around but a game freak. A playstation guy. Timezone freak.
A sumptuous fireworks dinner along San Miguel by the Bay opened the night for me. A large, more than a quarter pound rib from Friday’s bought my tummy. Speaking of Friday’s, I have a new crush. It’s one of their waiters.. He’s so cute, the chinito look over toned and mestizo look. Aw! he’s more delicioso than what I am eating. He doesn’t have a name tag so I don’t know his name.. but being persevere, despite of a loud boom box beside me, I heard the manager called him.. haha, his J – just like a name of a saint. hmmmm.. :)) I’m looking forward for another Friday’s pig out, good thing I have a frequent visitor card. 🙂
I was by myself and fate is really giving me a sight of what is having a boyfriend is.. for that night only, I saw 3 pairs of guys holding hands together. Though it may sound like a taboo here in the country, hey they’re still doing it in public. hmmm.. ganun? well, I saw a bunch of dating bf’s. I even saw my former classmate with his boyfriend, and to my surprise.. his boyfriend is the one whom I mentioned in my previous post, the guy who saw me somewhere and added me to his facebook and saw that he’s in a relationship. damn. haha
As a normal rational being, being alone began to sink in.. but that’s ok. anyone in this world will surely feel that they are.
Anyway. The night was so-so.
Sunday. I hate it. You know for a fact that when you wake up the next day.. Monday.
It’s time for work, 2 days is not really enough for me. Maybe I’m getting to used with what I am doing. It’s too monotonous. I need to add color to it.
I met someone over the cyberspace. Well, we didn’t meet yet. The odd thing about it is, we’re officemates. He calls every now and then. I haven’t seen his physical appearance but based on the photos he sent me, i think he looks cute and decent. Braces guy, small earring. He i go again, attaching myself to someone and when the time comes, it’s me who losses. We’re still on the talking+getting to know phase.
The catch here is, ok fine. Maybe we’re on to each other but what will happen if I confess to him my sero-status. What will he do if he found out that i’m HIV positive. Geesh. 2 things might happen, or will surely happen.
1. You and Me against the world (the dreaded Magnetic relationship) again… but this time, I made sure that I’m not an option.
2. Scram! go away..
Number 2 is the risk, number 1 is the happy side of it.
Just like what i said, I’ll hold on to my philosophy.
I’d rather cry every night than to be on an irrational relationship.
I’ll never be a desperate retard.
Sunday. A regular family day for some, but for me.. it’s my day.
Well, not my birthday. But a day to date myself out.
The original plan was to get out of the boring house early so I can set a movie marathon. more than 1 is already considered marathon ok? Last week I hit 2 in one day.
The rain fell hard so I need to push the time and wait while surfing the web.
2 hours delayed.. That’s already one movie.
A date with myself began when I bought some school things.. pens and papers.
The movie I planned to watch will be shown at 8pm and I’m done with the bookstore by 630pm, so I have ample to time to do my stuffs.
Bought a new hair styling was and great food trip filled the gap and was so enjoyable. It was a long time since I did this.
1. a hotdog + mushroom + mozzarella cheese + mayo stuffed crepe.
2. banana split ice cream.
3. more than what you can eat fire floss.
Went on watching the people pass by. Stare at the cute guys and listen to my iPod.
Movie time was great but not my freaking seat mates who were so noisy murmuring the story line. The rain stopped just in time for me to go home..
It was such a feather-light experience. It’s been a long time since I did this. I miss doing this.